madelezabeth:

pikaboo-desu:

All the reasons why I

I don’t know what the big deal was about Ciel being turned into a demon. Clearly he already was one.

(via little-the-wiser)

Several.

Thank you, an actual question of some substance. I had begun to worry if everyone questioning my had some sort of brain trauma.

Yes and no. I am happy in that I escaped my previously-thought inevitable fate. I saved my soul from being devoured. My existence now is leash holder for Sebastian. I derive amusement from having bested the demon, from being his eternal master. Yet at the same time, I have no real purpose now. I became what I needed to become to stomach and push forward with my revenge and now that it is gone, the fire of me is also gone. That really doesn’t leave much else. I let my hate become the majority of myself, and as such, it burned and ate away everything else that could have been. I’m now somewhat… empty. I enjoy the power this gives me, but I dofind myself wondering if I would have been better off being dead rather than a demon’s succulent forbidden fruit.

And as for Alois, the boy was rather unhinged. In wanting me to be ‘his’, he was essentially trying to punish Sebastian by proxy. He wanted to feel in control when he was out of it for so long. I don’t think he would have known what to do with me if I was there. He probably would have kept me locked in a room like a princess story.Tch.In answer to the hinted question, I really don’t know if he wanted one thing or another. I would think he would have been sufficiently traumatized like myself. If he had attempted to try anything, I would have had no hesitation to stab him if I had to, much like I ended up doing.

Thank you no.

Not in this, nor any other lifetime.